TaylorLove: Finally everything from tonight sank in.The presentation for To Write...
Finally everything from tonight sank in.
The presentation for To Write Love on Her Arms was very touching and emotional.
Though what got me was when I heard my best friend speak. I didn’t even know she was there. But I knew it was her, and I was literally on the opposite side of the room and…
You know what? I love you. So hard it isn’t even funny. Like rape hard. <3
Thank you for the kind words, you are absolutely amazing. It was a wonderful night, and it helped a lot. There was just so much there, and I was crying a good portion of the time. I just…I really needed to ask for help, and I’m hoping I can get it. I need it, as much of it as I can get. Everyone was so supportive, and I got some numbers. There was a lady there who suffered from a loss of a friend in her freshman year. She said we should go to coffee, and she’d take me shopping. Everyone was just so kind…I hope I can make it through this.
Sweet heart, listen to me. We’ve been friends since 4th grade. Roughly 8 years. That’s nearly half our lives. In all that time I’ve known you, I’ve seen you weak, and I’ve seen you strong. And I’ve seen you push through hard times before. You make me so proud MaShyla.
I know it’s hard. I know you feel weak now. I know that your living conditions aren’t the greatest. But guess what. I know you can get through it. You’re almost 18. You’re almost done with high school. You’re almost ready to live on your own and be happy. No more having to deal with at home stressors. I know I probably make it sound easy, and I know it’ll be hard. But I also know you can do it.
I love you so much. You’ve been my best friend for 8 mother fucking years. I can’t say I regret any of it. I don’t even regret meeting you because you just wanted my comics and I just wanted Harvest Moon. Because that led to what we have now.
We may not see each other as often as we’d like, but I know that I will always be able to go to you with anything, and vice versa.
You’re truly one of my best, most dearest friend.
Yeah, it has been eight years. Christ, back then I was that simple girl who just wanted friends. Now, I just want what I can get, and I won’t complain. I want a family, I want a safe home, I want happiness. It’s a struggle, and I knew not many of the people around me knew. I could hardly imagine what the people would say at my current school if they knew, but they don’t, and I want to keep it that way. I like being looked at as the strong girl, or the one who can fix just about anything. I want to help, but I know I have to help myself before I can do anything for anyone else. That is just so damn hard, it seems.
I’m so close to getting out, and I can’t screw it all up now. I have plans, I know what I want to do when I graduate. I want college, I want to have my own Wedding planning business. I want to have a family. As they said, we each have our own story. I want to finish writing mine, no matter how hard life gets for me.
Over time I’ve realized that I have a lot more too me, and I’ve grown to respect myself. I don’t get walked on, I protect those in need, I help and am a shoulder to cry on. In way, I’n a super hero, but just like Jamie, no matter how much good I do and how great I feel about that, I will always have that other side. I will always have my own problems.
I gotta go to bed, I’m falling asleep at my desk from being so tired from all that crying, haha. I’ll see you tomorrow or something. Night, and I love you.
TaylorLove: Finally everything from tonight sank in.The presentation for To Write...
Finally everything from tonight sank in.
The presentation for To Write Love on Her Arms was very touching and emotional.
Though what got me was when I heard my best friend speak. I didn’t even know she was there. But I knew it was her, and I was literally on the opposite side of the room and…
You know what? I love you. So hard it isn’t even funny. Like rape hard. <3
Thank you for the kind words, you are absolutely amazing. It was a wonderful night, and it helped a lot. There was just so much there, and I was crying a good portion of the time. I just…I really needed to ask for help, and I’m hoping I can get it. I need it, as much of it as I can get. Everyone was so supportive, and I got some numbers. There was a lady there who suffered from a loss of a friend in her freshman year. She said we should go to coffee, and she’d take me shopping. Everyone was just so kind…
I hope I can make it through this.
